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Friday, April 8, 1994—fifteen years ago today. I was really jazzed to see the movie Threesome, which opened that day. Christ, remember when the idea of three college students having a three-way could pack 'em in theater seats? I guess having just turned 20—and having lived a pretty innocent life up to that point—it was enough to snag me.
After Jogging—yes, that was really a class—I popped into the college library, where a couple friends were waiting for me. That's where I was when I found out: Kurt Cobain. Suicide.
Rush home. Turn on MTV.Hour after hour, news on Kurt Cobain and Nirvana. This was pretty big.
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Friday night. My friend Meg and I went to see Threesome. That semester, the two of us saw a slew of movies: What's Eating Gilbert Grape?, Short Cuts, The Piano, PCU, Blink, With Honors, The Crow. Actually, The Crow we caught the week after finals, in May.
Meanwhile, side note: Ever notice how in films dealing with gay shit in the '90s, the guy always had to bed down a girl as well as a guy?
Jesus, I'm ashamed to admit that I actually went again to see the movie the next night. And then Sunday night, too. I think Meg and I were too embarrassed to show our faces a third time in a row at our hometown theater for the same "devious" flick. So that Sunday evening we drove into Pittsburgh and saw it at the Beehive [a now closed-down coffee house/indie theater I'd gone to for the first time just a few months prior.]
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Kurt Cobain's suicide seeped into every faction of media and popular culture over the next few weeks. Magazine covers like Newsweek and Entertainment Weekly. CNN segments. Tributes on MTV. Generation X had found its immutable loss. And then, at once, Generation X kind of ended. Well, that's open to debate. But in my book, at least, it did.
The nonstop soundtrack while banging out my final papers that April and May (captured in the photo to the right by my dad) was alternately Smashing Pumpkins' Siamese Dream and Nirvana's In Utero.
And, yeah. That's a lot of denim.
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The following week, I was bounding through the Clearview Mall one night. I kind of liked the new Elton John song, "Can You Feel The Love Tonight," that was beginning to get a lot of airplay at that point. It was from some upcoming animated Disney movie. The Lion-something or other. So, off it was to Disc Jockey.And, just like six months prior at the same mall, I accidentally stumbled upon a soon-to-be fixture in my pop music-loving history—the single for Erasure's "Always."

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"All Apologies" became a posthumous Nirvana hit for Kurt Cobain. Unfortunatley, "Pennyroyal Tea," the more emotional track (in my mind) off In Utero saw its scheduled single release hastily scrapped at the last minute in the wake of Cobain's suicide. Something to do with the B-side, "I Hate Myself And I Want To Die." Pretty subtle, eh?
Give me a Leonard Cohen afterworld
So I can sigh eternally
I'm so tired I can't sleep
Distill the life that's inside of me
I played In Utero on Monday. I hate to say it, but 15 years later, it doesn't really rawk anymore. Now it just makes me feel kind of sad.
Oh, well. Whatever. Nevermind.
THIS PIECE IS A CONTINUATION OF:
* I'll Remember
* Return To Innocence
* Coffee, Drugs, Death And Ace Of Base
* Pet Shop Boys' 'Very' At 15: How Can I Even Try To Explain?
* These Are Days You'll Remember